Alexisonfire, 30 seconds to Mars and other shit

44.Listen to new bands. 

So, since you bitches didn't send my your favorite bands, as if that was one very hard task *Note the sarcasm* I figured out I'd ask for some in experience project you, and unlike you, people there were pretty generous and modest and sent me load of bands to listen to.

From which I remember ;

Green day: This band is actually very talented and have cool music. Period.
Alexisonfire: Their screaming wasn't really attractive, it sounded as if they screamed just to scream, with no passion or love or pain, just plain loud screaming.. But I liked a few songs of them like, Rough hands.
30 Seconds to Mars: They're too soft for my liking, except for their song 'The Kill', Very good one.
Coldplay: Also too soft for my liking.
Paramore: They're too popish for my liking as well, but I really admire Hayley, I guess her name was? Anyway, I think she is so beautiful and she has an awesome voice. And I love 'Misguided Ghost' Probably their best song.

I think I better stick to my current favorite bands (Black Veil Brides, You me At Six, Memphis May Phire, Pierce The Veil, Sleeping With Sirens, Bring me the Horizon) until I stumble upon some other bands that I can obsess over.

I sometimes forget how to breathe..

Hello, 

This blog post is probably not as humurous as the others (Shh, I'm trying to pretend that the other posts were some sort of funny) 

Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that I think I have this obsession with perfection.

It's like I always make those lists of what to do and I programme my whole life, and then when one tiny thing goes wrong -which is totally normal cause I'm human after all- I start panicking, and I forget how to breathe or think straight, and I'd start feeling so hot and aughipotatofakitall.. It's really Annoying I swear.

Par example;

 Yesterday, I decided I'd look for ideas and themes for my room make-over, and I couldn't think of any good theme, And I realised I don't have a favorite colour to paint the walls with, and there are too many quotes that I like to hang on the wall, and then boum, My mind went blank, and I started feeling as suffocated as never, and it got so hot I swear I thought I was going to be on fire at any second. It's like my mind starts racing from idea to another in full speed non-stop, and it exhausts me so much I'll even have this feeling as if the room was turning around me and I don't even know.

 

So I just got my head out of the window, and tried to breathe with my tongue kinda out. Dammit I must have looked like a dog.. A sexy one I bet. No Ew. I don't mean dogs aren't sexy. Well they really aren't sexy, but they are cute. Like adorablly cute.

Okay, is it weird that now that I'm thinking about, I think I actually forgot how to breathe, for real I can't breath without making this noise, and without my chest rising very heavily, no ew, this is disgusting. 

*After a while*

Okay, so I was looking for videos teaching you how to breathe, DONT MAKE FUN OF ME I ACTUALLY DONT KNOW HOW TO BREATHE ANYMORE, and I found this, it doesn't really describe my situation much, but still, I thought maybe if one if my amazing invisible followers had breathing problems could use it..

I'm actually starting to gain a normal pace, somehow..

Well adios bitch.

The Hunger Games

4.Read at least Two books.

I haven't really finished reading two books yet, but I finished the first one and it was the best book I have ever laid my fingers on. It was catastrophically amazing. It took me to a whole other planet. I have no words to describe how bloody flawless it is. 

I bet you have all heard about The Hunger Games, but to make this post longer, and to make me seem wiser, I'm going to write it's summary (I'll actually just copy and paste it)

'In a dark vision of the near future, twelve boys and twelve girls are forced to appear in a live Tv show called The Hunger Games. There is only one rule: kill or be killed.

When sixteen-year-old Katniss Everdeen steps forward to take her sister's place in the games, she sees it as a death sentence. But Katniss has been close to death before. For her, survival is second nature.'

Here ya go, it's fantastic, and you should all read it.

My favorite girl character was Katniss of course, cause I loved her strong personality, and the way she thinks. I also loved how she put love her last priority, while her family her first.

My favorite guy character is Gale cause he hunts, and he knows how to handle the woods, and cause he is plain hot. But I also liked Haymitch. I don't know why, I just did.

My favorite part of the book is when the Game Makers don't pay much attenton to her so she shoots the apple in the pig's mouth, and then she bows and says 'Thank you for your consideration.' That part killed me.

Last but not least, the part that made my eyes teary is when Prim was picked to participate in the game and Katniss volunteered instead of her, and also when Rue died and again Katniss sang to her. That was very sweet it made my heart cry watterfalls.

READ IT. 

Do my hair, and I'll do yours..

20.Spend a day with little kids.

If you think my last two posts were so childish and immature, wait unti you read this, potato..

After we went back from the beach, my bestfriend's sister who is 9 years old, wanted to stay over ours. But I was so tired and exhausted, I didn't really give her much importance until next morning. 

We had a shower together, whic was pretty annoying, cause I didn't get to do my unsexy shower dance, and I had to stay in my bra and underwear. We went shopping, and did some art attack shit that I also can't find it pictures. We tried making a tent but it fell down on us while we were playing Monopoly (She won btw).

We watched a bit of T.V, and she wanted to watch Rio 2 But I've convinced her into listenning to music instead.

We also did each others hair, nails, and dressed each others. 

The outfit she chose for me was actually kinda cool for a 9 year old, she made me wear a black short dress, and a leather belt, a thin knotted waist blouse with black and white spots, white high heels and did my hair in a simple braid.

Now you must think awwwe she is such a sweet cute little angel. Oh holly molly wait until you hear the shit that comes out of her mouth. She swears better than I, Giving the middle finger is probably her hobby. And she listens to Screamo music, and she can scream a bit, kinda.  It's not that I have anything against screamo music. It's somehow my favorite genre. Buuuut, she kinda is still young for that, don't ya think?

Oh look at me talking as if none of that is my fault, mine and her sister's actually. We never really were carefull while talking about sex or anything like that while she was around. So it's mostly our influence on her that made her that way.

Oh gosh.

And that was my day with a little kid. Hope you enjoyed reading about it as much as I enjoyed the day itself.

Goodbye mi amor. (Someone has been learning Spanish *Points at mi* Mhm) 

Perks of being a Freshman

2.Go to a camp:

Goood morning sunshine, guess who went to that bloody school camp? Hell yeah it's me.. 

And I had loads of fun.. Doing absolutely nothing. 

And that's the perks of being a freshman in my school. Actually, It's not about being a freshman in my school, it's all about the students in that class, so it's more like, the perks of being in my class. Where lazy is a gift..

We're like the laziest class of all time, so while the others were calling strangers and having a good time, we were talking about who makes more noise while peeing? Cool, Huh? While they were doing each others hair and make-up, we were teaching each other new things about sex. I learnt a few things I wouldn't enjoy sharing with you.. 

Now take a seat darling and grab some pop corn cause I'm about to tell you the detailed version of that school camp, Yay..

When I got there Thursday evening, my classmates weren't there yet, so I had to stay with the Ninth graders, And I had to bear the awkwardness of not knowing what to reply to their compliments on my new side bang. (I suck at accepting compliments) (And yesh, maybe I'm trying to tell you I've got a side bang) Once my friends showed up, they left us alone, we practically did nothing but a little catching up chit chat. We had dinner, Soup and so not Salty fries. And we went to bed. 

Actually, they went to bed. I just jumped from one to another to annoy the fuck out of them, and it worked like magic. Eventually, they decided to do something. And that something was eating. Oh such lovely thing to do. 

I got bored and went with my friend to one of the Ninth grades room, and just awkwardly sat there watching them call strangers and make fun of them and holy shit that was even more boring than talking about peeing and farts. 

When the clock struck 02:00 Am, we went outside which was against all rules of that camp. Such rebellious act you'd think, huh? No. No just no. Once a girl claimed she saw something, we all went back screaming and punching. Running for our lives. Fortunately, the teachers didn't hear anything. I went back to my room, and we ended up talking about nonsense again. But somehow, I found such joy in it.

We didn't sleep until around 07 Am, and didn't wake up until around 10 Am. 

Our programme had reading books a bit, then talking about some subject and giving our opinions about it. And then we had free time. My friends and I went to the balcony cuz the wifi there is so fast. Hehe. And that's when I heard that shot about my ex lover. I was so saaad, so I just went back to bed, put my earphones on and tried to sleep, but I ended up shedding a few tears xD. I was so ashamed that hid gf knew about our thing that I couldn't go eat dinner, but later that night, my teacher made me go watch a movie with them. I swear I felt her friends' eyes burning through me. But she seemed to not give a fuck. In fact, she was very nice and sweet with me, which made me feel even more guilty. But I had to deal with it. 

This time we fell asleep at around 03:00 Am. And woke up a bit earlier than the day before. We had the same reading and talking programme, but I fell asleep in both of them. Most of us did.

Afterwards I went back to finish sleeping since I felt like death when One of my friends came hurrying telling me my crush is downstairs. I got up like lightening, got ready, did my Mascara, and everything. And just when I was ready to go down and see his beautiful ass face, My teacher told me that I should do my bed and blablabla. That bitch. I didn't finish until he was already gone. I got so enraged I started slapping my head to the wall. Literally. I'm a fucked up mess, okay?

Since I had nothing to do, I went to the Ninth graders class where the wifi is also fast in there. I sat there a while when I heard manly voices. When I looked out of the window, the first thing I spotted was my crush hopping (Cause walking is too mainstream for him). I froze in my place for a moment, then headed downstairs and almost fell down. I kept telling myself to act cool, pretend I didn't even know they were there, I even bought myself some ice cream to keep my mouth busy from saying something very stupid, which is likely what I'd normally do once I see him. But dang it, I couldn't keep my eyes off him. 

Then we went to this village near our city called Zarqa, it's amazing. 

Watch it, ignore the shitty quality and just fucking watch it.

I took a few pictures too, that I didn't find but I promise I'll upload them as soon as I find them.

We went back to school, said our final goodbyes, and went back home. And that was it. 

Summer crush

62.Go to the beach:

So on Sunday, my family and my sister's family (I mean my bestfriend's, it sounds weird saying my family and my sister's xD) Went to Oued Law's beach. It's actually a city that used to be a village and blah blah blah. Juts watch this vid and shush.

I had such good time swimming the whole morning, but at evening, as we always do in summer, my sis and I bought some food and snuck to her grandmother's roof and ate it. 

Anyway enough of boring useless shit, I have something to tell you.

After we stuffed our mouths with junk unhealthy food. We got back to her house. But just when she was holding the keys to open the door, someone else did from the inside, and that someone is a hella mudda effa cute Nash Grier-looking guy. He was so hot, I almost orgasmed. He was so hot, all I managed to say is a 'Uh, Ouuh' While she jumped with terror. He was talking on the phone so he just smiled his one million dollar smile while I died. 

His smile is the death of me, but holy shit, I'll die happily.

But that awkward eye contact of only few seconds wasn't enough for us. So we waited for a bit of time and went to the shop where he went to (That actually was a guess that fortunately turned true). We caught him going out, and I tried looking at my nails so I won't make another awkward eye-contact, but dammit, I looked at him to find him starring towards us, so I 'half-smiled' (That smile was probably even more awkward than having your brother reminding you of your pad that you left in the toilet (Yup, that actually happened once)). But fortunately, he made the first move, and said while chuckling with such smooth beautiful voice 'Did I scare you?' 

Well hell, you scared the fuck out of us, but you're an angel, so that doesn't really matter, does it? Just marry me already bitch.

I gotta admit, that was creeeeepy. Wey hey.

We just laughed and there was an awkward silence until my bestie told him that we left the door open for him in case he forgot the keys, he smiled and thanked us and then left. 

We fangirled. We died. We relived. And we swore we won't give a fuck about our current crushes this summer, because summer isn't really summer when you care about someone. And plus, there are loads of cute tanned guys to stalk and meet in summer. But it doesn't really work well when your heart belongs to someone else. 

I can't wait to go back to there so I'd see him again and his mother effing hot friends.

Do you still think I'm 5? 

Probably..

Oh well Baiiii ♥♥

Anti-Social?

Oh well Helloooo,

I didn't blog yesterday cause I got back late from the beach and I was exhausted. I couldn't keep my eyes open for more than a second. I had to constantly bat them to give them some sort of rest.

Basically

And I forgot to tell you Saturday that after I got back from the camp, I went to my 13 years old cousin's birthday party. And I came upon the realisation that I'm anti-social.

I wouldn't really call myself Anti-Social. I'm just Not-Socially-Active, or even better, 'A people's watcher'. I know it sounds creepy but I really enjoy watching people talk, walk, move or just breathe, there is something about people that I love and hate at the same time, something that keeps my eyes locked on them, something that holds me from talking or participating in whatever the hell they're doing. And all of this just leads people to think I'm bored, or more often a wallflower. But I don't think I'm a wallflower. Or maybe I am? I mean I do the sitting by a wall and just plain observing. But I'm not quite. Not with my close friends anyway.

But I'm also not dumb. Even when you think I'm clueless, I'm actually studying you, trying to predict your words, your moves, your weaknesses, your everything. Wicked creepy, huh?

That's all for now I guess

Dear jerks, (Dear everyone actually) Go fuck a cactus.

Wey Hey, I have no followers but I'm still blogging as if the world cares. :3
Wey Hey, I know you want to join this awesome blog. No? Ok..
Wey Hey, I desacticated my Facebook account.
Wey Hey, WHAAAT?

Yuuuup, You heard right, I desactivated my Fb account. I bet they're all surprised now, thinking I blocked them for no reason. Cuz hey, Fb addicts don't just desactivate their accounts, they just don't do that. But honestly, I'm really sick of everything, and everyone. I don't enjoy anyone's company anymore, so I'd rather just keep to myself and make my own self happy. I think It's the best way to not hurt myself and avoid sadness.

Plus, I hate seeing my crush comment on gorgeous girls' pictures and flirt with him, while I'm just sitting here missing him like hell. We used to talk 24/24 (Almost) So what happened?

And turns out my ex-lover was lying to me the whole time we 'liked' each other. One thing I know, I did like him, but did he? Well at least that's what he said. But did he mean it? Cause I realised yesterday he used to tell me the same thing he used to tell two other girls, his Girlfriend (Yeah, He had a girlfriend at the time he confessed to me) and her bestfriend and who knows how many other girls there were.

For the girlfriend thingy, Hush, I know What I did was utterly wrong, but I still did it and I already feel bad enough. But I really was blinded with his sweet promises and everything. I liked him so much that's all I cared about at that moment. And I know that's no excuse, But I swear I'd do anything just to take back that mistake.

Anyway, she read one of our conversations that HE forgot to delete, where he was telling me how much he missed me and shit like that, so she got angry at him and confronted him. They had a fight, and he thought she read our Whatsapp conversation we had that same morning where I asked him if he does love her and he replied with a 'no' that soon turned into a 'just a little bit' so he flipped out at ME. And then I overheard her complaining to one of her friends of the other convos she read of him flirting with her bestfriend. The thing is I already asked him (Back then, when we still shared bit of romance) if he had this thing for her, but his reply was and I quote from him : 'Nooooooooooo, I don't fall in love with bitches ;)'. Also, later that night, I overheard her again with my ex bestfriend (Long story), but this time she was fangirling because they were back together and then she explained how he begged her to forgive him, because he loves her so fucking much.

Oh well thank you, Mr.Bitch for lying.

Apart from that, I learnt something new those last days (It has to do with the same subject somehow).

I learnt that all boys are jerks.

Well most of them.

There is my crush thing, I just hate how he totally erased me from his memory, that if what I heard about him wasn't true (I'll tell you about it later).
Like bitch, don't make me fall in love with you if you weren't going to catch me. (I doubt it's love, but shush)

And then there is my guy's bestfriend, He is very sweet, and kind, but you know what's his problem? He falls in love way too eaaaaaasily. Or at least he thinks it's true love, but it's not. You can't fall in love within a day, nor forget about someone right after breaking-up. It's either he keeps changing girls, as if changing under wears to fill the gap he feels, or he is just.. a jerk? Aaaand, he makes every girl feel  special, but later you realise, it's his pick up lines to everyone. In other words, he Is a bloody hypocrite.

Also, I met this new friend -Who is slowly gaining more place in my heart- that has 4 gfs (As he says) and still is fishing for others..

But the worst example of guys is my own brother. I really am not comfortable with how he replaced his probably Two or Three years old girlfriend so easily after they broke up. Sure, she blew up all her chances, but you can't dive into another relationship right after you cut the other. I jtust doesn't seem right.
But you see, My brother, is one of the most hopeless romantics ever, he  is such a sweetheart (Just not to my parents and I)  and I never saw someone treat his girlfriend or love her better than him.

And that's exactly when I realised most boys are jerks, and I'd rather not have bestfriends nor get married or fall in love or anything. I'll probably end up travelling around the world with my baby pets. I don't even want babies anymore.

I really want to give you a few updates but I have to go sleep now cuz I have to wake up early tomorrow so I'd go to the beach with my family and My sister's one.

P.S: I hope you don't mind me calling my bestfriend, sister. I don't have a sister, so I think it'd be obvious It's her I'm referring to whenever I mention the word 'sister' Kay?

Definitely one of those -Weeks- 

Fart *Bloop* Fart

22.Hang out with friends:

Yes bitches, I did that too.

So school was practically over for us -Freshmans- (So now you know I'm not 5 years old, huh?) at Saturday. But my friend and I still walked to school together cause we missed it's ugly walls so fucking much (We actually just wanted to see if our crushes still show up to school cuz we're thaaaaat addicted ugh)

We then waited with our other friend who was waiting for her boyfriend,
They were supposed to go on their first date but she started freaking out because she heard her parents talking about following her to see who is she going out. But then when he showed up she started choking us with her infinite farts (Apparently, that's what happens when she is nervous), tried to convince him to just cancel it but ended up in his car anyway.

Meanwhile, we went to our other friend's house to ask her to hang out, but she turned out to be sick, so when the other one got back from her date that didn't last more than an hour (A quick Blow job I'd say) (KIDDIIIIING) (Or maybe not ;) ) We all went to a restaurant, I HAD PIZZA, so we were literally broke at that time except for the other girl who had to leave. And we had to beg her to buy us Ice Cream before she leaves. Now don't give me that dirty look bitch, I'd kill and slaughter for Ice cream and you know it.

It was a sever no at first cause she had to call her boyfriend this summer. But she eventually agreed in condition we'd pay for her phone bills. Hah, she wishes.

After eating our sweet every flavour ice cream, we both went our separate ways, aaaand that's it.

Aloha mi amigos ♥ 

Bunnies and furrballs of cuteness

43.Spend a few days with my grandparents:

I know I said I'd give you an update after I head to the toilet, and apparently it took me over a day? I swear I didn't spend all that time in there, it's just that TROYLER (Ship name for Troye+Tyler), Zalfie (Zoe+Alfie), and then there is Connor Franta, the cutest little shit ever. He is so adorable I'mma die.

But anyway, I spent this weekend with my grandma, I know what you're thinking, very lame, but actually.. No.

I had so much fun, like her house is so quiet and peaceful, which fitted me and my obsession with books perfectly, and she is so kind, and funny and fuck all of you, my grandma is the best.

My grandpa is kind too, but he spends most of his time outside with his friends so didn't spend much time with him. Oh but he bought me a gift, He didn't really buy me a gift, he just bought a bunny doll to his youngest grand kids, and oh well I took one cause I'm that fab. I mean asdfghjkl- It's bunnies we're talking about. I named it Mr.Cuddles, cause it was very cuute and adorable and very cuddleable.

Mme Shmisha
(Ignore her weird eyes and cheeky smile)

But at early morning, he replaced it with this Yellow furrball of cuteness he bought when he was out again, and gave My Mr.Cuddles to one of my very young siblings. That bitch. But I'm happy with this sun looking doll, it's also fluffy and cuddly and very bright yellow, so I ought I'd name it Madame Shmisha. (Shmisha/Sun)

This blog post is very immature and dumb, and useless xD Idek.

I'd die to know how old you think I am.

See ya in my next post ;)


Oh what is my life? Posting a picture of a creepy bright yellow doll in my senseless blog.

Summer 2014 *.*

As long as I can remember, I spent all my summers hiding in my room trying to be invisible, doing absolutely nothing. Except last summer when my bestfriend and I decided to act very stupid and ugh just ugh. Those were the days I'd like to forget :3

But I want this summer to be different, so I'm just going to go for it, I guess.

I'll try not to say 'no' to fun, live my summer to the fullest, and make the best out of it.

Anyway, since my stupid country decided we only need 68 days of rest after ovER 200 FUCKING DAYS OF STUDYING, I'm going to make a list of what things I'd like to do through this 68 days. Hope you like it.


1.Wait am I the only one that finds this number somehow sexy?
That wasn't really a fun thing I'd like to accomplish this summer but oh well sorry, I just couldn't resist it.

Now for real :

1.Have a complete make-over.

2.Go to a camp.

3.Get a job.

4.Read at least Two books.

5.Write a novel.

6.Start a blog and commit to it. (That's gonna be pretty fucked up hard, cause I honestly never been the type of people to commit to anything, AT ALL.)

7.Spend a whole week with my bestfriend.

8.Learn how to cook.

9.Have a horror movies marathon.

10.Have a comedy movies marathon.

11.Have a chick flick movies marathon.

12. Try something new.

13.Go hiking.

14.Ride the first bus you see and go to wherever the hell that bus is going to. (Just make sure the driver isn't a rapist)

15.Sleep at midnight.(Omf, I just realised while revising I wrote sleep, I meant swim, dammit I can't seem to forget about sleep)

16.Camp in the roof, and stay up to watch the sunrise.

17.Read the whole Quran (Yes, I'm actually Muslim, even though my cussing addiction says otherwise, but Hey, don't blame my mistakes on my religion, I'm nothing near perfect but I'm sure my religion is.)

18.Have a complete room make-over.

19.Learn a foreign language. (I hate learning, but I'm very interested in Spanish)

20.Spend a day with little kids.

21.Interview someone.

22.Hang out with friends.

23.Learn to fish.

24.Make a video diary.

25.Spend a whole day with no Social-Network.

26.Take my bestfriend out for lunch or dinner.

27.Make a homeless' day.

28.Make a stranger's day.

29.Go shopping with my bestfriend.

30.Watch at least Two animes.

31.Finish Pretty Little Liars Season 2 and 3. (Yesh, I'm so laaaaate)

32.Make covers.

34.Invent some new sort of food.

35.Make a plan for the future. (I don't see how that's fun, but shush, I really need to start thinking of my future.)

36.Make new friends.

37.Write very deep song lyrics.

38.Stop being a Masochist. (That's also not That fun but It's definitely something I'd love to accomplish)

39.Sign up to summer English classes.

40.Go to the gym.

41.Visit the Archeology museum in my city.

42.Travel with my family.

43.Spend a few days with my grandparents.

44.Listen to new bands. (That would require you sending me your favorite bands and your favorite songs, who knows? Maybe these will be my new favorites too)

45.Hang out with cousins.

46.Spend more time with my brother.

47.Go to the local swimming pool with friends.

48.Go to the fair with friends.

49.Travel with friends.

50.Have a Mother-Daughter day.

51.Have a Father-Daughter day.

52.Visit local touristic areas.

53.Make a summer scrap-book.

54.Sign up in a library.

55.Finish reading 'Dark'.

56.Finish reading 'The Bell Jar'.

57.Finish reading 'Empty Desk'.

58.Hang out with elementary friends.

59.Hang out with middle school friends.

60.Sign up for a sport.

61.Go to the movies.

62.Go to the beach.

63.Ask strangers to sign my summer scrap-book cause I'm that fab.

64.Have a daily work-out to keep in shape.

65.Buy some fashion magazines, pick out a couple of really cute outfits, and try to recreate them for less.(This one is stolen, but oh well it's kinda fun, Teehee)

66.Bead some bracelets and sell them for charity. (Also stolen)

67.Draw your self-portrait, or of your family members.

68.Have a lazy day. (I'm a pro at that kind of shit.)

That's all I guess, they're not as fun as you probably were hoping, but just to Make an actual plan, is actually a big start for me. xD

Most of them require being with my bestfriend or just friends, It's always more fun when you're doing it with someone you appreciate and love. And I'm literally nothing without my friends. Literally.

I'll give you an update as soon as I accomplish any of those, I actually did a few already, so I'll write a review right now, well after I go to the toilet. I can't hold it anymore. Nature is calling ;)

Baiiii <3 <3

Please feel free to give me feedback, that shit makes you look sexy. 

About the blog

This blog is as useless as the other one (I deleted it because I started to think that it doesn't represent who I am anymore, yes Dinosaurs represent my soul better)

I'll try to update every Monday and Sunday, but I'm most likely to not and then make an excuse for not blogging cause I'm that lazy. But I do promise I'll do my best though.

Enough said.

I love you and you better love me back.


Warning : This blog may contain full language, if you don't like what you read, you can simply get your ass outta here, feel free to close the door with you though. <3 

About me

I love chocolate.

Chocolate loves me.

I think that sums it all, huh?